May 27, 2015

WE'VE GOT A LITTLE LOVE-HATE

I should be apologizing about my absense, but I'm not going to. I haven't felt the want or a need to blog for a whole week and I'm not going to feel bad about it, even if I can almost sense the frustration some of my friends might have had. My days have revolved around the group project (and trust me, all that organising etc is exhausting), exercising and just, I don't know, trying to stay sane. It's been a weird week in the sense that I have done a lot and then I've done nothing. I have had lists and plans and I have almost stuck with them. I don't know... writing hasn't just been easy lately. I have ideas and I basically have everything I need, but I'm still uncapable of actually starting to do it. I guess it's the same as in excercising, for instance, the beginning is the most difficult part.

I honestly don't even know what I'm rambling - it doens't make sense to me either. I'm coming home to Finland tomorrow to celebrate (read: cater) my sister's graduation. I'm afraid I fall into an even bigger laziness hole (like I do every time I come home-home) and won't do anything reasonable. This time I will, however, get some shit done in the plane. I swear.

I'm so sorry about the quality of this post or the blog in general. Actually, I take that back, I'm not sorry. I'm tired.

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all around the world pretty girls wipe the floor with all the boys
pour the drinks, bring the noice
we're just so pretty

May 20, 2015

I'LL ALWAYS MISS YOU

I'm sorry for yelling at you when you decided to sing for me a nap-time song.
I would give anything to hear it again.

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when you walk away i can't take steps that you take
do you see how much i need you now?
when you're gone the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone the face i came to know is missing too

May 18, 2015

WALLS TUMBLE DOWN

To say that today has been absolutely shit would be an understatement. It has been absolutely shit times 500.

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'cause baby now we got bad blood
you know it used to be mad love
so take a look what you've done
'cause baby now we got bad blood


May 16, 2015

LET GO OF EVERYTHING

I don't really know how to start telling about my week. So much has happened and it feels like I've been in London for weeks when for real it's been five days. I guess I could start by telling that Ansku visited here finally and we had fun two days together. On Tuesday we met a boy at KFC who was wearing a Finland shirt because of the hockey game. I'm sure we annoyed him very much. Then we ate in cool restaurants and had KFC twice. Fried chicken has put its spell on me.

However, this week has been very emotional and hard. I have felt like I have no direction, especially regarding uni work. Tuesday was definitely a low point for me in every way. I've told you that we are doing group projects and my group is definitely not ideal. On Tuesday morning I was the only one to show up in two hours, which wasn't nice. It feels quite lonely to be surrounded by other groups that get on with their work when I'm there texting people where they are. I've also had trouble to come up with my articles because I just can't seem to be able to write and, which is worse, pitch ideas. I've felt so stressed about it, so after the lectures when my tutor asked to speak to me and told me that they are aware that I am the only one really showing up and that they just need me to get on with my work. He said that I can't possibly keep up with everyone and that I need to take care of myself. After that talk I completely fell apart. I ran to the toilet and started crying. I need to point out that I have never ever done anything like that. When I get stressed, I want to whine and scream, but I never cry. I guess this tells in what kind of a state I was.

Tuesday didn't end well either. Ansku and I had way too many drinks (we had super fun though) so I ended up feeling sick during the night. Again, this was a first for me and something I had sworn never to do. Now I have tested my limits and I won't be crossing them ever again. It is just not worth it. The good thing was though that I didn't have a bad hangover.

Ansku left early Thursday morning and somehow I got a couple of good ideas for my features. I pitched them to my tutor and he approved, so now I just need to come up with done (and actually write them) and then I'm done. I also passed teeline (pikakirjoitus) 40 words a minute test so I've officially passed teeline. However, I'm aiming for A so I need to pass 100+ words a minute. Teeline queen is on the roll! And just worth mentioning, One Direction did their first interview without Zayn and it was a good one. So happy that everything sort of returns to normal (and the interview was a funny one, just saying).

So things are getting better now. I'm trying to be positive and just do the best that I can. Yesterday evening I went to a friend's friend's party and didn't drink a single drop. Once we got to the club, I was dancing the night away. I noticed that being sober isn't terrible because of the annoying drunken people (they are a big part of it though), but because I get worried that people might fall and die. No more about that, but that was just something I noticed.

Anyway, these pictures were taken last weekend when Emmi and I met for a stroll in Kaivopuisto. I was feeling oddly good about my body so that's why I'm wearing that combo. It is past three now and I have not gotten up my bed the whole day. Now I'm going to change and head to the nearest park to do some exercise. In the evening Radi and I are going to a Turkish restaurant so I can start my feature. Everything will be okay (I hope).

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 i swear i will never get bored of this song



 you've got that james dean daydream look in your eyes
and i've got that red lip classic thing that you like
and when we go crashing down, we come back every time
we never go out of style


May 11, 2015

HAIR STORIES

While I was going through the Paris photos, it really hit me how much I had cut my hair. So let me tell you a story...

It all started like a year and a half ago when I decided to grow my fringe. At the time I was a really big fan of Lily Collins and especially the hair that she had. Her hair style then was an over-grown bob cut and the important part was that it was even on both sides. Ergo, I had to grow my fringe and wait for it to be long enough so I could cut it even. Well, this process - as anyone who has ever grown their bangs away knows -- took about that year and a half. During that time I kept cutting just the ends of my hair to keep it sort of healthy.

I decided the Easter break would be an ideal time for me to do the transition. However, I had doubts - and not because I was afraid or anything stupid. It was because last fall and winter many celebrities (Taylor Swift, Kim Kardashian just to name a few) did the same thing I had in mind. Naturally, this led to the fact that some ordinary people realized what a great look it is. Couple in our school cut their hair and I was afraid - mostly annoyed though - that people would think I was just following everyone else, even though I had waited for that moment for over a year.

I think it was Julia who simply said: "Who cares? If you want to do it, then go for it." And so I did. The next day I arrived to Finland, I sat in the hairdresser's chair ready to change. It was funny how the hairdresser was like "Are you reaaaaadyyyyyyyy??!?" and I just raised my eyebrows and said "I've been waiting this for over a year. Just do it."

And I haven't regretted it at all. First of all, my new look has received a lot of compliments, but most importantly, I feel so good. A new me. It's miraculous what a new hair style can do. I did love my long hair, but it's time for a more simple look, more simple times, perhaps.

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 i went from this (excuse the face).....
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....to this!





 jokainen yö vie aamuun
jokainen yksinäinen
valon jos sytyttää, maailma herää


May 8, 2015

BROWN SUEDE HEELS

I needed to introduce you my relatively new shoes from ZARA. I bought them (or my mother did) when we were in Barcelona. Talking about my mother, I decided to make a surprise visit to Finland since it's mother's day on Sunday. And it really was a surprise because, for some miracle, we (as in my sister, dad and I) managed to keep it a secret for months. Heheheehe, we are evil.

Anyway, back to the shoes. They are literally perfect. Even though they are "high", they are the easiest to walk on because the shoe sole is balanced. I had also looked for shoes like that for like three years. Ever since I saw a similar pair with a blogger a couple summers ago, I knew I wanted something similar. And since I haven't managed to find a suede skirt yet, these are the perfect replacement for it!

I will be returning to London late Monday night and I'm taking Ansku with me. Happy mother's day to everyone!

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paan täysille luureihin sen laulun jonka voima vie mut mukanaan
moi teille kaikille, sen kun huutelette, harmi kun en kuule sanaakaan
joo mä tajuun et on rankkaa 
kun niin kauheesti pelkää mitä käy kun muut ei tykkää

May 6, 2015

PARIS DAY 3

I finally have "the time" to sort through the last of the Paris pictures. Time is really a broad concept because I do have a lot more to do than blogging, but since this day has been a dull, uneventful and tiring (and I must add, full of procrastination), it's good to do something reasonable, right?

However, back to Paris for a bit. So the third day started with sleepy eyes. I had slept like two hours so obviously not enough. I stuffed myself with croissants etc during breakfast. Then it was time to pack and check out. Unfortunately we had a problem with getting our deposit (20e) back from the hotel because apparently some of us had made noice in our floor during the night and that was against the rules. Obviously we didn't approve of this because we had been as silent as possible and it wasn't fair that we had to suffer when others had been the loud ones. Naturally the ones who had made the noice were the ones who hadn't paid the deposit. This was obviously our tutors' mistake, and my friends and I came to a conclusion that the trip had been badly organised from the start. That is one of the reasons I didn't want to participate another trip to Antwerp this summer. After we had complained a while, we were promised that we would get the deposit back - and we did at the end of day when euros didn't matter anymore. However, it was the principle.

When the mess had been sorted out, our group divided. Emmas and Wendy were too tired to go to this museum that was, I admit, ages away. Diana and I decided to go and we headed there. When we were in the metro, I met two girls from fashion criticism course. One of them was from Sweden so we had a lot to talk about. :-D The museum featured famous French designers' work and it was Super interesting! We spent a good hour there admiring the beautiful, and sometimes shocking, pieces of art.

After that Diana and I somehow ended up having lunch with Savannah and Ahaana, two girls from our course. We found this insanely cute café where we all had a veggie quiche, which was exeptional. Then, I don't know how, Diana and I managed to find Emmas and Wendy in this café by the Louvre and we went to buy macaroons for us. Then it was already time to get back to the hotel and head to the railway station. The wait there was way too long - another reason why the trip wasn't excecuted in the best way. Most of us fell asleep in the train because we were all exhausted. I was one of the rare ones who didn't. I ate my macaroons and enjoyed my music. All in all, it was a fantastic trip and I'm so glad I decided to go. Paris is always a good idea.

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 goodbye paris!
 tell me that i don't know nothing
tell me that i just don't learn
tell me we're the generation destined to crash and burn
we tell you that we don't know nothing
we tell you that we just don't care
this is our generation, we'll scream like a scene
we are, we are the young


May 3, 2015

BARCELONA OUTFITS

Right now I'm procrastinating like no other. I've done my laundry and tidied up my flat in general and I've had a group meeting about the gp, but I still have a lot of things to do and I can't seem to be finding energy anywhere... Help me! Also I would need to find inspiration to write an article about the history of the zipper, but somehow I can't even do that. What is the matter with me...

However, I am doing something productive now - or does blogging not count? These are the documented outfits I wore in Barcelona. Somehow going through all the pics from BCN seems too overwhelming right now, but I promise I will post them eventually. I still haven't sorted out the "Paris day 3" pics either. I repeat, what is the matter with me?...

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i want you to know that it's our time
you and me bleed the same light
i'm better under your reflection
but did you know, did you know know
that's anybody else that's met ya
it's all the same, all the same, all the same glow

May 2, 2015

TOWER BRIDGE AT NIGHT

These pictures were taken a while ago, actually like two months ago when my sister was visiting. We walked close to my nearest tourist-y place, Tower Bridge, in the evening, and I decided to do some photgraphing. This was the outcome.

A quick word about the past week. Uni is all about the group project (gp from now on) and shorthand tests now - very stressful, I can assure you. On Friday I met up with Nati and Mel when we went to the movies and had dinner. I had a great time and I'm glad to be back :-)

Today has been quite a productive day. I've done my exercise routine (didn't go very well because I still have the remainings of the flu) and I've done my pitches for the gp, blogged, and started doing some research for a piece that I need to hand in on Tuesday (more about that later, hopefully). I still need to practice shorthand and find my news pegs, but I guess then I'm done for today. Have a lovely evening, guys :-)  

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felt nostalgic. and now i really need to watch hsms again :p
 
 
no mountains too high enough, no oceans too wide
'cause together or not, our dance won't stop
let it rain, let it pour, what we have is worth fighting for
you know i believe that we were meant to be
 

PERFECTION IS THE DISEASE OF THE NATION

One of my favorite trends for this season is without a doubt Michael Kors's combination of a see-through flower skirt and an ordinary, even plain, collar shirt. To give it more structure, Kors added a leather belt to join the pieces together. The romantic and the realistic side are in a perfect harmony in this outfit, and that is the reason why it intrigues me.

For this reason, I wanted to try it on myself. I had just bought a new blouse from Zara which is a little longer than usually (because I had this outfit in mind). I also remembered that about a year ago Aliisa had given me a skirt she had made herself and before this trend I didn't know what to wear it with. I put it on, and although it isn't the most wearable combination it still works. All you need is a bold attitude and avoid bending too much. Summer, hurry up already!

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 my loneliness is killing me
and i must confess i still believe
when i'm not with you i lose my mind
give me a sign, hit me baby one more time